Less than 24hours

Ahhhhh less than 24 hours till I fly to Hawaii and less than one week till I hit the DirTy 30!
I'm pretty excited about going to Hawaii...extending my youth for 6 more hours (yay time travel) and seeing my sis and good friends! I think after work I may get some new running shoes to run around the island! I'm just super stoked to get away from work for a week, take some holiday and of course turn 30!

I use to think that I had this fear of age...I was 21 with 5, 6, 7, 8 years experience for the longest time...but when I look around my house, see my lil pup and where I am in life it gives me this smile...This 20 something year old molded this decade for the new 30 decade. I see myself saying: Hey here are the keys to this body/life....I got all this for you; Don't fuck it up!

Circumstances in life for different individuals vary. I really wanted to have a family, kids, house and the dog by now....turns out that you not all things in life happen at the speed you want them to happen. I didn't want to be gay, but had to own who I am and move forward. I really wanted the kids, but I really don't like babies. Puppies grow up quickly...Babies OMG! For-E-Ver!

I'll leave the brats for my sis to pop out...hopefully she does that on the island and I can get to know them after the pamper/crying phase. If I were to have kids, I'd def adopt. Age 5 and up! I couldn't have a girl because I see how attached I am to Reese. When Reese cries at the dog park my hearts hits the floor! I couldn't imagine having a daughter do that to me! I think with a boy it'd be easier...and then once he's 12 it'll be my childhood all over again with theme parks n stuff!!!! YAASSSS!

Aside from family, love will be something that my 30year old soul will need to challenge. I've given some baby steps to this area, so this should be interesting. I know *PRIDE* is a huge factor / obstacle that stands in my way. Second would come patience and third would probably be jealousy.

The rest of my temple I feel great about! 30! YASSSS! I told my sis about 5-6 months ago I was ready for 30. I see me getting out of this limo, on a red carpet and seeing people and events of my life waving at me as I enter this big steel, black glass door with the big handles 3 | 0...and I open the door and all I see is darkness & fog. I'm not inside yet...there will be no light until I enter the doors. It's gonna be great! Like exploring a new world. No one's been here yet! This is my discovery. And I get to bring my memories, and life with me. SOoooo cool! I even dressed up for the event! Black/white suit! Classy!

Cheers to the life on the island and turning 30! I'm ready! And can't wait to explore! :-)

Sprained AC joint

BAH! Well i went to the docs today and got my shoulder x-rayed from this weekend. Didju know that they xray you that day and 30seconds later show you the pic?!? *MAGIC*...So nothing damaged (YAY!) just got a couple patches and was told to suck it up. I should be good in two weeks he said. Two weeks of no lifting?!? That is IMPOSSIBLE!!!!! Well legs and abs are gonna love these next few days I suppose. Anywho speaking of gym I haven't seen gym since OMG a week now! I can't believe it! I feel like a sludge! Eck!

Ok I gotta write LuLu for Hawaii...tell her what's good :-)

Happy New Year

Happy New years! So the BEST part of hawaii. I love challenging myself. I fuckin love it! So those who know my fears know heights is one of them. Me my bud Jen nd her husband nor did a nature hike to Maunawili Falls. The hike was challenging but the reward Ooooo so worth it.

We got in the water (BRRRRR!) and saw rocks to jump off of (bout 20 ft). Then I saw this one kid jump off where you see me standing (about 50ft up). So with my rock climbing experience (Thanks Gary & Cam) I put my knowledge to good use on slippery rocks. I almost fell and got the shakes. So after I got up, I saw how far Jen was and was like Holyfuck balls! OMG! How am I gettin down from here. We had this hot navy guy named Rick makin sure I was OK (Go Medics) and I kept bending my knees trying to jump. I was telling myself, fear is nothing but weakness in ur mind. Do it Michael. Just jump! So I let out this Cowabunga and just did it. I threw my hands in the air when I emerged back up.

I did it! I couldn't wait to swim up to Jen. I didn't cry but my emotions were up there. Facing your fears just rocks. And I'm glad I had friends there to be there and snap the pics.

My vacation in Hawaii totally rocked. I will upload pics on facebook. I also wrote good words for my boi Will and had the BEST so far new year's EVER! I love an miss my circle of friends already. They aren't my circle of friends...they're my family of friends. MUAH! Love u all! Happy New Year's!

Whaddup Now

Life without a pcphone....i swear! It's worse than survivor! Ok not that bad but still. I'm glad I got to see how DEPENDENT I was to that phone. It was my crack! My pcphone was my:
*Phone
*SMS/MMS messenger
*Calendar
*Contacts
*Task Manager
*Web Browser
*GPS
*Shopping List / Jot Notes
*Sometimes my camera
*Lover

So my phone losts it's GSM signal...and I did some research on how to update it. With caution I proceeded to upgrade my ROM. The minute the upgrade failed at 0%, my phone bricked out on me. Well it pops up in bootloader mode and recognizes a USB cable. So now it is my project. But in the mean time I need to buy a replacement (found one for $225, but I'm cautious)...or get a different pda/smartphone

Job Interview: Ok...when you buy a car, you want to go to the right guy, find the right car and feel pleasant after the transaction is over with or at least not leave with that raped feeling. So I had a job interview at the Naval Research Lab. I aced the phone interview and was ready to talk to them on their turf. The time was set for 1pm on the 22nd. I had a POC number and directions. So I had everything they sent me filled out, and when I got to the car I noticed the directions did not mention how to get there from 395N. Ok...I don't have a PCPHONE to lookup the address and my GPS can't find the NRL. So I attempted to call my POC. Nobody answered. Called home and was told to take 295N. Ok...doesn't sound right...called pops and got the addy. Cool...so I'm running a lil late, but make it to the visitor's center. Filled out the entry form and was told they couldn't get a hold of my POC. So they found a different number and come to find out the POC I was given was out to lunch. O.....M.....F.....G! Are you fucking kidding me? Whatever, so what now? Now I got to find/drive building 209 (they gave me a map...how nice)
So instead of these chumps coming to meet me at the visitor's center I'm gonna drive around this "yard" and find them. Cool, so there's broken glass on their roads (IDKY) and after 10mins I find the building (LandNav was never my specialty). Realizing I'm already late there is NO time for meditation. So I focus on breathing IN/OUT while going to the building as I don't want a bad interview. I step inside the renovating building and summon the 1950's elevator to come down. Eventually it reaches the ground floor. Ok I need to get to room 544B....hmmmm the elevator has 6 buttons; G, 1, 2, 3, 4, R.....OH FUCK ME SIDEWAYS! I'LL BE GAWD DAYUM'D IF I INTERVIEW ON THE FUCKIN ROOF!!! So I push 4 just incase G=1, 1=2...etc! So what is on the 4th floor? NOTHING! Now when you picture nothing you're probably thinking lighs, a blank wall/hallway. Fair enough....these fuckers didn't even have the drywall up! I saw the buildings insides! Well once I saw that all I could do was laugh! If I didn't laugh I was gonna get more and more tense...so it might not have been theraputic but that whole way down the elevator to the car and back to the house (with a much needed starbucks break on the way) I laughed and said to myself "Fuck me! I can't believe I went pass the visitor's section".

Today I wrote the recruiter letting them know where they need to improve. Directions was one, Meeting in the visitor's center is another and finally GET A FUCKIN POC WHO ANSWERS THE PHONE. So I'm still huntin for the next best thing, but I tell you what.
If you don't give a fuck about the person attempting to work for you, don't waste my time having by having me get dressed up! Fuck if I ever interview for them...i'll do it as a joke! I'll wear some worn out jeans and an I'm with Stupid polo (cuz I'm classy like dat!) and then interview!

Lasty...I'm going to hawaii to calm my nerves...Back in the day when I had money (~*Le Sigh*~) I got myself a 1st class ticket to see my good friends will and kristy get married. I can't wait to see my kuwait buddies!

Unforgettable

...wow, i really don't have much to say. I don't feel like blogging but feel if I don't I will lose interest or something. Well let's see...therapy has been awesome. I've found different outlets other than my blogs and the gym to deal with my stress. As a matter of fact I'm blogging when I'm suppose to meditate for about 10 mins and chant positive words to myself. I've been given this task so that I can control my anxieties (can't i just be like brittney and pop a pill?). So I use meditation in the morning and whenever something that stresses me out pops in my head I focus on my breathing and acknowledge my thoughts but tell myself I'm focusing on whatever I am doing or breathing in and out. Bottomline, it's working and i'll be glad to let the guy know about these positive results.

Chunky Monkey - O...M...G! I think I've put on weight! I grabbed my face in the mirror and was like "ummmm....r we puttin on the holiday pounds right here?!?!?!". I need to up the cardio in my life and then at work continue using the gym.
Oh! I mentioned the p90x stuff, right? Well I just ordered it all to come in. I'm very excited to do this Jan 1st (or 3rd is when I get back from Hawaii) - April 3rd shots. It is gonna be FUCKIN FABULOUS! I may have to cut down on drinks or maybe more so me fags ~:-(

But yeah I've got some words of encouragement on facebook and will keep myself motivated and show off the results in April. FLAUNT IT DIRTY! FLAUNT IT! LOL! <-- Attention Whore

Ok for someone who didn't feel like typing I think I made a good dent. If I miss this thing after christmas I will be in Hawaii and will blog about that.

Cheers!

Alcohol-Free Weekend

Aight I did it this weekend...Put my mind n body to the test. I gave up alcohol. And this weekend I went to Town and a House Party. Got the taunts and temptations but of course was able to withhold. My friend Frank is real cool (I've known him and Brooksanne since 12). He was like dood just gimme ur keys, crash on the couch n have fun. Thats whassup! Thats good friends keepin a good eye on u! But n e ways...Did TOWN Friday night and the Drags were on it that night! They had the moves and the music! Freakin HauTe! Not too many familiar faces at town...saw Christian there. Met some guys there that I guess met online and Rob I just met. He seems like cool people. Ate at Glory Days up in Burke and I swear...I've never seen a salad as messed up as Glory Days. I mean come on guys...really, hot steak with baby spinach leaves. U get a C- for efforts. At least the company wasn't slackin. Headed to SPFG mall, got me sum clothes and called it a day.

Oh I just got my tickets to Hawaii! I'm gonna see my friends Kristy n Will get married! So $18o0 sumthin for a R/T ticket! Well shit! If ur gonna fuck me up the ASS, u might as well do it right! So $2300 bucks R/T ticket (...we flyin first class up in the, flyin first class, livin the life...Glamorous). So go to Hawaii...spend the night/day in Cali then fly back to DC. I'll prolly see my boi Marlon and/or say hi to my Grandma over there. DEFINITELY grab a burger from Tommy's ;-D lol! They better serve sum muthafuckin champagine in 1st class!

Aight I gotta do sum work. ~ dirt