Goodbye Sterling - you will be missed!

This weekend I learned that Sterling Richardson was in the hospital, in dire condition and yesterday passed away.  Sterling was the first person I met in DC who was as genuine as can be and always had a positive attitude that shined about him.  Thank-you Sterl for playing a part of my life Sir.

I wish I could've been a better person towards him.  My nature for those who know me growing up I didn't really have friends...so when people take an interest in me, I'm always suspect, fearful and don't establish trust.  Why are you interested in me and my story?  Sterling was super nice and wanted to get to know me better as a person.  I spaced myself from him.  I'm socially stupid when it comes to spending one-one time with friends.  I have very few friends that I can do this with.  It almost feels like an interview of friendship.  Sounds stupid, but in my head that's what I think.  If you're reading this ask yourself; how often have we spent a day of friendship together?

It's mostly group stuff I bet.  Even when invited out, I'm usually good if it is a group atmosphere.  This costs me a lot of grief and crap when it comes to relationships.  Robert often wants to spend time with just me, and we live together.  Ugh - but I digress.  Sterling, I'm sorry that we didn't get to form that bond.  You had an interest in getting to know me better and that scared me.  Now the opportunity is lost.  I won't get to see you in DC with that backwards hat saying: Dirty!  Whats up brah! How you been man?  I haven't seen you in like forever.

I will miss that and it will be in the back of my head when I go out for drinks in DC.  I don't know fully what happened - just reading through the posts it sounds like you were battling depression.  That battle is tough...and it scares me.  I battle it too Sterl and I often think about how you can be overwhelmed and underwhelmed but can never be just whelm.  I choose to have anxieties.  I choose to always bury myself in things to do, overwork myself so that I'm not just sitting idle.  Sitting idle, not relaxing but sitting bored.  I could see that with you and how you had different functions going on in life.  And what scares me is one day that monster may come to me and snowball all my work to where I'm soo off balance that there is no coming back and I can't see all the friends that care for me.

I'm truly truly sorry from the bottom of heart that you're no longer here.  You meant a lot to several people.  Sorry I didn't show it man, but I will do better at trying to let people in.  I will work on my trust with humanity, so that I limit missed opportunities of saying goodbye.

For now my friend goodbye.  xoxoxoxoxo - dirty

*tap tap* mic check mic check...is this thing still on? Oh hey!

Bon jour Dirty's Jibber Jabber,

I know the blogger in your was more in your 20s and you did fabulous in 2008.  Since then you've been more obsessed with your phone, well being, not as stressed about love and have an awesome dog and live right next door to your best friends....simmer down dirty, you still got your anxieties.

We can now say that in your thirties you manage to become 1.25M in debt.  Wheeee!  You have a BF, Robert that you live with and he is very helpful. You lost your fit figure - we had a shoulder injury and after that incident went to cardio and just kinda dropped away from fitness.  You work a graveyard schedule so it def ain't easy there and not to give you any excuses but your metabolism sucks too lol.

fuck.  what else has been going on?  Oh yea the 1.25M in debt is from homes.  They're all rented and we have anxieites about keeping the boat floating.  Working on the basement of the new house so that we'll have more income to cover losses and we're not far away from completing that project.

Well - I'm hoping I keep up with you, put lots of photos of the latest and greatest and of course since this is a jibber jabber blog keep nothing Taboo :-)

muah!

xoxo - dirty

August Update - Dandruff

Ok so here we are day 31 (forget to write yesterday).

Still dandruff?  Yup...and as much as I love the scalpmaster I am going back to dandruff shampoo and cold water.  I gave it a fair shot...and honestly I think my cowlick area doesn't like the no shampoo treatment.

I'll still use the cold water method, just with shampoo.


If anyone else has different results I would love to hear what you may have done that I didn't.  Cheers!


http://www.ridiculouslyextraordinary.com/how-i-cured-my-dandruff-and-itchy-scalp/

Day 22...still dandruff :-/

Ok so we're nearing towards the end of this experiment and I still have dandruff!  I got a scalp massager which if you can splurge the $2.64 (shipping included) these things feel AWESOME getting your head ready for the cold water:

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000NJG82W/

I just ordered another one...im gonna try and get some dual action going on.  My hair doesn't stink. My scalp isn't as itchy as before but who knows if that is due to weather.  I was hoping to see less dandruff.  What's interesting though is...why do we shampoo if the results never change?  I know that there is a tar shampoo that can help me out that gets prescribed but honestly look what happens...it just comes back.

It's not like a fungus that you take pills for and then goes away.  Anyway I have not completed my 30 day trial but it's coming close to an end.  And I will keep up with it.

Meanwhile my boyfriend Robert would probably MUCH RATHER have my problem as oppose to a hair line that rescinds! I will still have mad hearts for my buddah guy!  I'm a fan of the bald look (>_<) no comparisons!

Mr. Sims (queue life changer)

I have not posted what's been going on in the one area I usually Charlie Brown in (love).  Maybe that's because I only blog when something dramatic happens.  I can recall a good blog where my 27th bday involved waking up next a love one and hearing the words happy birthday :-)  Whatever happened to Marlon Jones?  His hypersensitive ass moved up to Sacramento to blow $$$ on gogo boys and further experiment with his body.  But enough about that saint of a man *bats eyes*, he doesn't hold a candle to Mr. Robert Sims!  (new paragraph)

My do-gooder!  I smile thinking about him.  He is studying to be a nurse because he likes helping people and wants to volunteer =).  So I met Robert online in December and live in April.  Since April we have Skyped or stayed in touch EVERYDAY!  Incredible, right?  He moves in with me this weekend.  He's a west coast boy at heart and that is gonna be EXTREMELY great when we make our big move together outta DC (but not anytime soon)

Soooo....a week later (No shampoo)

Well I've made it past a week and my stylist cut my hair last night commenting that it looked thicker.

Results (01JULY2013 - 08JULY2013) -

Dandruff: severely mild --> severely mild (no change)
Itchiness: extremely itchy --> itchy (change)
Eczema: flared --> reduced
Allergy count: 4.x --> 4.x
Smell: No foul scent


I've started just waring a shower cap when Im in the shower and using the kitchen sink for ice cold water on the head....if you don't see why, go take a shower nude and blast it on ice cold.  Lemme know if you have other questions ;)

Will post new results next week

Day 1/2 - No Shampoo! (Dandruff / Eczema)

Start Here: http://www.ridiculouslyextraordinary.com/how-i-cured-my-dandruff-and-itchy-scalp/

I will fill the in later on today but we are going to try and cure dandruff. Right now when my head is itchy I do the kitchen sink ice cold rinse and scratch all the flakes out. So far no funky smell but only day two. I'm excited to get past the week stretch!


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