2008...

you know...i've been pondering a lot about 2008. I'm not even done with the year (and I can't wait for it 2 b dun wit!) but I think about everything that has so far happened this year. The biggest thing this year is family.
Losing two family members within 10days of each other and then today hearing that my grandmother has broken heart syndrome. I'll get into that in a paragraph or two...That was the biggest thing this year.

Then falling in love, breaking my heart, chasing after a dream, to finally cutting the cord and moving forward (*marks one month anniversary*). I can view this as a set back, or as a lesson learned in time. Being the optomistic person I am, I'll smile look back on what it was and move forward. What I won't do is look back on what never was nor could've been. Fuck it! ;-)...

Moving from Kuwait back to DC. This was definitely a positive move. iLuv living in DC...have the best job in the world (and by that I mean, iGot the best boss and awesome co-workers...who could want more than that?)...granted job satisfaction isn't what it use to be, but oh well. As long as I like the people I work with and flexibility, I'm good!

I don't wanna forget that I am greatful for the new friends that I have in my life. Friendship is something that iLuv yet I seem to be guilty like a lot of people when I feel that it's 'out of sight, out of mind'. My real close friends (Chris & Tiff) live at belvoir, so seeing them is ALWAYS a pleasure! Frank and Brooksanne whom I've known since 12 live two blocks away from them. Real cool that I have those treasure 15miles away from me. Now to the DC District; Tuffie- I value the friendship we have and love that we can laugh/act silly bout the same stupid shit *MuAh*, Christian - You are sooo like the little brother I never had! We bullshit, talk, fight, give hugs...it's def a friendship I've not had with anyone but it's cool that we move forward past the drama n bullshit (you owe me lunch pendejo!). There are a lot of guys who've been impressionable (if that's such a word) to my life and I know over time I'll treasure those memories and allow you closer to my layers. I've made some good acquitances here since I've moved from Kuwait.

Moving back to grandma...She is officially moving to VA (Brooks, you got another republican). So the doctors have diagnosed her with Broken Heart syndrome. Basically, she's been living alone these past 4 years and recently lost her son and brother. This is very hard and she needs family. She is having trouble breathing and has difficulty walking. So now it is time to inventory the house, have her get out of the hospital, go to re-hab....two or three months later have a room setup in VA where she will be a part of the family.

She has to improve, otherwise....well she just has to improve. I think it will be great having her back in VA. As soon as she can move a tad quicker she will be able to help out around the house (so that she feels productive), make dinners and eventually go out to the library and Sr Center to play bridge and what not. So this will be happening sometime in 2009 and iHope I just hope it will be a better year that what 2008 has given us.

Ok, I'm sure i'll do anutha year wrap-up when that time comes...Oh shit! I forgot! Duh! I've been blogging for a year now! Damn...I've never done/kept up with a journal this long! iLuv it! w00t w00t! Be back in VA manana ~ c!a0

So here I go again on my own...

Hey guess what?!? had my first house party today! w00t w00t! So we started off watchin eddie murphy: RAW (I love tha flick) and then started off some music/south park and playin Suites. It was fun as fuck (pause, dirty get some water!)...once 1:50 came along and a neighbor asked me to keep it down we started to stop and that's where it was hard was gettin these everyone to leave. After an 1 hr 1/2, they had left (or soooo you may think)...*insert a lot of bullshit drama to include my BF comin up wantin to stay the night...blah blah blah, went back down after 30 more mins*. Meanwhile at the bat cave my "friend" (we'll get into that) Christian was writin me cuz he was havin a bad day...so I told him that I my friends were havin a bad day and they felt i was rushin them off because I wanted him to come over...he asks why and i told him because they think you are just a piece of ass to me. I told him i wish he wasn't but he hung up on me! OoooooH! Dirty got pissed and called him back...NO ANSWER, shot him a txt sayin:
Wow, I can't believe u hung up on me...as if dealin with my friends drama wasn't enuf U decided to do that?? I know you had a bad day so MAYBE we got disconnected
He shot back: Booooooo
So I shot back:
U hung up on me! Dood i know you got some drama goin down right now like i do but bendito don't do tha shyt. U call or text when u calm down, u got me? Cuidate
He shoots me back: Naaah....

So yeh, dirty sent back "Adios" and thats done! I won't fuckin tolerate disrespect....FUCK UR MAKEUP SEX, IF THEY FUCK UP U DON'T NEED TA HIT 'EM UP!

So yeah...I'm still gonna head out to town..find the right guy for me. I was drunk on Friday night and saw that I had texted/called this one dood...didn't know wha happened with the call but i saw wha I had texted him and was like wow! I'm pretty blunt! Aight this dood has a cool personality but keepin it real...He says he wants to hang out, but not so much. He's got HIV and I NEVER! NEVER held that against him, because if I ever had that virus I would not want people to seclude me...Judge me by my character/quality...not something that doesn't have anything to do with you. I always want people to see me who I am and what is down en la corazon...if they don't get to that level, then so be it I have no problem cuttin people off! I fuckin know how dust tha shyt off my left shoulder and move on! Jus like Marlon, no calls or text after 5 days, Orale papi! Laid n Played, I got u! I ain't fuckin hatin tha game cuz i'll neva take back wha I had...I keep myself smilin by puttin tha cherry chapstick on an rememberin the tha night. I like keepin those happy memories (so no take backs about LA!) Fuck, if Christian hadn't done wha he did...this night woulda been less wha it was! But sabes que hue??? I'm fuckin strong and will deal with what i gotta deal with, y por que? Por Pendejos! ,-P OralE HuE!

AUGHHHH!

***Dirty UnWinDin***

Lemme put on sum happy music cuz today wasn't really a bad day but I'm fuckin disappointed that my furniture has not arrived and I'm at home...I pissed my mom off cuz when she was askin me what was wrong i just answered that i'm havin a bad day (translation: Say, "I'm sorry" or leave it alone)...so when she asked me what was goin on i snapped and said I don't wanna talk about I just wish my furniture was at my place so I could have a bad day and not let you all see me like this (oooof! shitty choice of words) so now i feel even worse for sayin that but what the fuck ever, its probably forgotten or will be forgotten in 5 mins time. So tomorrow the new furniture arrives!!! YeYYYYY! lol! I have to go to my newcomer's orientation at 1000 (ummm something tells me that these are *charity hours* so I'm real siked about that!) and lets see...yeah that should be it.

I have a gym membership at gold's so AFTER my place is semi-setup i'm gonna work off these shitty days...I call them shitty because I have like no friends over here...Ok, I got some HS buddies (Maricel n Maritza) and i guess an e-friend (btw, emergency-friends aka e-friends are people who don't holla at you unless they are bored and ain't got shit goin on). Wow, 3! Way ta go Dirty! My buddy sterl has learned to tone down the textin and ummm Marlon is in Cali which hurts also cuz if he were here I'd jus have smiles on my face! I'm ready to start livin in my new condo, goin to the gym and work. I hope tomorrow they get me a parking pass for the state dept cuz I've decided that the metro is not only far from me but waaaaay overrated...who the hell can afford to park-n-ride the metro??? I'm sorry people but if you can afford to do that, you should invest in a H2 Hummer and slug people to work (I bet you'd STILL be savin $$$). So lets see did i get to the root of why I'm havin a bad day? Miss Marlon, lack of friends, still living at home and feel lonely...So what can I do about it? I need to find out where all the gay guys hang out besides bars n clubs, have the furniture make it tomorrow to get out of the house and i guess take Marlons pic off mah wallpaper (Wha can I say, his labios are fuckin haute!) I do feel a little better venting this out and if no one reads it, tha would fuckin rock too!!! I hate havin people here me bitch, but its 2008 and bloggin has replaced journals/diaries ~:-P