Poetry

~*FRIENDSHIP*~

I need for you to realize you had my heart untold
It wasn't mine to give, yet it was just as good as sold
The quirks that I have make me judge myself inside
I can be harsh, bitter and confused. Yet my ego holds its pride

But always know that I love you and believe what we have is fate
And that I don't expect it back, you don't need to reciprocate
As far as 2nd place goes, your friendship is my consolation prize
It took me time to realize that it was I who must compromise

Just know that you are the most brilliant man I've ever met
You challenge my mind and heart, so I reap the benefits
The journey life has taken us still strikes hunger in my eyes
I wonder where we'll end up? Where do our futures lie?

Letting go of a dream; that was the hardest part!
But time heals all wounds, and I found solace in my heart
I gotta wrap this up babe, and just got one last thing to say:
You are my friend forever; have a Happy Thanksgiving Day!

High NS = High Productivity

When I have a high NS day I can really feel my soul.
Whether it is in a euphoric state, or deep down in a hole
I tend to turn to alcohol, it helps me forget about the pain
Or I turn to poetry, like I'm doing once again!

The poem below was inspired by this "friend" of mine
Combined with my High NS, he finally crossed the line
I can dig one fuck up, maybe even two or three
but after that last one, I'll shake my head and leave

My true friends who know me, know me for who I am
I'm someone you can count on, I'm like "the family man"
With a heart of generosity and a smile on my face
No true friend would make you feel like you just won last place

So take a peek below and see what was inspired
Unbind, Unleash, Relinquish, Release - "My soul is very tired....."

Unbind, Unleash, Relinquish, Release

My soul is very tired and can not take it anymore
Pack your bags, leave your keys and don't slam the God Damn door

Delete my number from your phone
I'm moving on, there's no one home
From the worst times to the best
I put all these memories to rest
Never to be awaken; an endless sleep is where they'll lie
I walk away from these memories; let them wither away and die

Inside my mind I'm frustrated, tears are rolling down my eyes
I say these words in my head, take a deep breath and sigh

I unbind, I unleash, I relinquish, I release

The tingling down my spine, I got goosebumps on my arms
The flame that burns on this wick guards my soul from harm
I picture when I met you and the joy it brought to my life
Yet the way you fucked with my head, it cuts me like a knife

I unbind, I unleash, I relinquish, I release

Take these photos off my mirror, put them in this flame that burns
The smoke is getting darker and as I inhale my head turns
I'm blowing out this candle! Away black smoke I've reached my inner-peace

I unbind, I unleash, I relinquish, I release

The fight between us built within

I really miss talking to him
And hearing his sexy voice
Did I get my feelings hurt
by asking him to make a choice?
Deep down I think its silly
For me to feel the way I feel
Why do I lack control of my emotions?
Why can't I just keep it real?
The last time we spoke
He said some hurtful things
My true self wanted to cry
But my superego stole the scene
I find that when I can't defend myself
My true self cripples up and hides
It's up to my false self, my superego
To give me that inner-strength inside
My superego will convince me:
"Fuck him, you don't need that shit!"
"Who the fuck is this nigga?"
"You're Mike Sanchez and don't play that bit"
"Drop his ass and get some dates"
"It's not like I'm reaching for the stars"
"A sexual attraction, good sense of humor"
"And what the hell guys…own a car!"
I’ll put on my rolex and sport some versace
This makes me somewhat ostentatious
But it builds up my confidence and ego
Damn! I look smart, sexy and flirtatious
But wait superego, slow your roll
I really do care for this guy
His desires, ambitions, his smart intuitions!
He makes me smile more than cry
I understand that as a couple we may not make it
But where does our friendship lie?
My heart still beats strong for him
And I don’t want to lose him over pride
So superego and true self lets work together
And give it another try
For the biggest threat to over come is
Me, Myself and I

*~PoEtiC~*

It really hurt that you never called
And I think of you all the time
It hurt so much that I'm feelin poetic
And thinkin of ways to rhyme

I wrote you a message, sent you a text
No response was your reply
After day 3 the answer was clear
...'He's just another guy'

Letdowns will happen and baby I know that
So here is now where I start
Dust off my shoulders and move on to the next guy
someone who won't crush my heart

The emptiness that clouds my heart is opague and rather foggy
But the cloud has this bright streak..we'll call it my silver lining
The silver lining is what i learned from this cloud I built myself
I will always keep my guard up whenever dating, dancing, or dining

The past guys I've linked up with
I've treated pretty shallow
I blocked them off from my true self
so they can't make my heart feel hollow

The feeling is not satisfying to let people go
Your eyes tear and throat balls up to where you can't even speak
But then I look in the mirror, toughen myself up..Y?
Because I don't ever wanna to feel weak

Now my heart feels better
Probably because I wrote this poem
Letting go of someone special
Is like watching your child leave his home

And although I end this poem
I end it feeling somewhat incomplete
I lift my head up and dust my shoulders off
...for the feeling is not defeat!