The fight between us built within

I really miss talking to him
And hearing his sexy voice
Did I get my feelings hurt
by asking him to make a choice?
Deep down I think its silly
For me to feel the way I feel
Why do I lack control of my emotions?
Why can't I just keep it real?
The last time we spoke
He said some hurtful things
My true self wanted to cry
But my superego stole the scene
I find that when I can't defend myself
My true self cripples up and hides
It's up to my false self, my superego
To give me that inner-strength inside
My superego will convince me:
"Fuck him, you don't need that shit!"
"Who the fuck is this nigga?"
"You're Mike Sanchez and don't play that bit"
"Drop his ass and get some dates"
"It's not like I'm reaching for the stars"
"A sexual attraction, good sense of humor"
"And what the hell guys…own a car!"
I’ll put on my rolex and sport some versace
This makes me somewhat ostentatious
But it builds up my confidence and ego
Damn! I look smart, sexy and flirtatious
But wait superego, slow your roll
I really do care for this guy
His desires, ambitions, his smart intuitions!
He makes me smile more than cry
I understand that as a couple we may not make it
But where does our friendship lie?
My heart still beats strong for him
And I don’t want to lose him over pride
So superego and true self lets work together
And give it another try
For the biggest threat to over come is
Me, Myself and I