...back to Phoenix

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I swear one fuckin day I'm gonna be able to see family and know that it's not because someone is dead or in poor health. One day I'm gonna fly out to Phoenix 'just because' or LA 'just because'. 2008 has really fuckin sucked when it comes to the health department.

I'm not ready to lose my grandmother yet, but I do understand that it is a matter of time. I hate thinking that the hourglass is running against me...that the grains of sand are moving quicker and quicker! but what am I gonna do? I can't undo what's done. The only thing I can think of doing is fly over there, sit and be miserable in hopes of slowing down time.
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Speaking of "Inspired"

So this weekend I didn't get to do the "ME" time before my califo-grandma came over here. My great uncle had passed away. I think of all the people in my family that I am close or real similar too it was him. He loved to laugh/joke around. Would try and make light of things with his jokes and of course was VERY family oriented.

When I heard that he had passed I couldn't shed a tear. When I think of him, I see this goofy smile he has after telling a joke and it puts a smile on my face. This man had Kennedy's disease, and had beaten cancer a number of times (Cancer just won this round). He never let anything hold him back. He had a carefree adventurous attitude. On the plane I smiled and thought about how he lived...and I'm gonna do a bungee jump soon!

So I buy a R/T ticket to Phoenix and put my grandma to work (make me a quiche! I'll be hungry when I land)...So I land in Phoenix and of course the mood is not so great. So it's time for me to perform a 180 on the group and get them smiling (after all..it is what "tonton" would want!). The quiche was great and although I only spent a couple days there it was very therapeutic for my grandma and uncle (who lives minutes away from her). Dinner, Breakfast, Manicure/Pedicures, Card Games, Dinner, More Card games, breakfast and then back in the air I go!

It was a short but well worth visit in the end. I know TonTon's character as if it were my own and family is the most important thing to look after. He was also a poet and artist. His memorial is going to be on his 70th birthday (beautiful, in my opinion) this Sept. If my mom can get me a painting of his I would be honored to hang it in my house.

That's all for now...this upcoming weekend is gonna be huge w/my best friends moving in and califo coming tambien! Oooooooh! I should have her grab me a tommy's burger! (<-- Yeaaah DC! Fuck ur 5 guys, this is a fuckin burger!)